I have been considered a very cynical downer. In high school, especially, I was viewed that way. So, what am I doing with this Guru and liberation stuff? What is my ulterior motive? Well, motives arise. I think of them all the time. Here are a few; to improve my inner state, to improve my material conditions though I really don't know how meditating and chanting are supposed to do that. I guess a lot those hippie acid heads could be asked that question. What are they doing with this ego destroying stuff? Aren't we famous for ego?